Lost In Beauty-

Friday, May 09, 2008

Yo, haven't been blogging for some time man. really busy nowadays with common test:( exams are coming and i'm seriously discouraged from studying! sigh. i know i can't finish all that will be tested and that's why, i can't motivate myself to study for this common test:( and just as much as i want to start mugging seriously, i'll feel so tired and discouraged that i feel like sleeping:( damn, i think i'm going to do really badly for this common test... sigh. but it's okay, cause i'm determined to study hard for my prelims from june onwards:D hehe. trying hard to mug a little for common test too, at least i managed to finish my photosynthesis and respiration chapter! haha!:D happy! alright la, i know i wont do well for common test, but still trying hard, but at least, i'll make sure i ace my subjects in prelims!:D hehe..

sigh. quite a lot of stuff happened in the past few days... just had Sports Day on 7 May, and aqua lost the cup this year:( but actually, it's okie la, at least we got second? hahah! can you believe it? before cheering competition, we were last! but after cheering competition, we got second! i'm really proud of Aqua, bryan, the house captain of Aqua during my term, and of course, Xiaopeng, who's the next house captain man! hehe:D at least before my terms ends, Aqua still manage to secure a second! hahhaha!

had a long chat with a friend on sports day too. i guess the talk was heart wrenching and anger-stimulating man. sigh:( yes, it's about him, and through the talk, i realise all the rubbish he has been doing all the while. seriously, i really can't believe all the contents of the talk, cause it's so unlike stuff that he'll do? probably i'm thinking too angelic of him, or i've been covering all the rubbish that he has done for him? i don't know, but i just know that it hurts me so badly to hear all those things about him! alright, maybe i've really been covering up most of the rubbish that he has been doing for him, but this time, i really don't know how to cover up for him anymore! it hurts me so much man, bcos i'll really never believe that he has done this kind of thing, until it really happens to a friend of mine! why? i guess it's the only answer i would want to know, the reason behind his actions. is it because of all the lousy influence you get from someone? or you did it out of your own accord? she asked me, is he worth it? is he worth me doing so much for him? i guess i never doubted my answer, that yes, he's worth it, until that day... she was so sure as she was telling me that he's not worth me doing anything for him! maybe she's right, but no one would ever imagine how much it hurts me to do this to him. dao-ing him right from the start of the day to the end, just to force him out of me! seriously, it really hurts me so badly! ouch, my heart cries for the don't know which time in the day:( the more i hope to avoid, the more i see him and the more pain is inflicted. please, it really hurts to be stucked btw a friend, and a person you like. trust me, it really hurts. i don't even know what to do now! sighhhhhh. someone pls just enlightened me...

i want a break, i really want it...

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